2023 Recaps

 Actually I have memory of a goldfish. I can't remember much what is happening. The main thing is that I GOT A NEW JOB. 

The earlier year was a bit of haze. Oh yes, it started with me trying to rescue 4 cats abandoned by my neighbour but then the cats died one by one. And never had I feel so tired and incompetent. Only Mini survived. 

NOTES

( I put this in draft and gonna hit Publish. It is now 2025, end of 2025.... and a lot had happened. Just wanna say the 3 cats that died particularly one of em is still one of the cats I hold much love in my heart. I will do a separate post on my 2024 and 2025) 

Updating my hoard of books

As my blog here, is my means in getting my thousands ( because I think it is now thousand of books ) of books inventoried, I need to update my books for the past years. I think the one I bought from 2021 to 2022. 

2023 update of books will be done probably next year? lelz. 

I think this was 2022 BBW sale book. Couldnt be arsed to go to Mines and bought it online. I think I already have ZOM-B. That book is probably gonna be drop in some community shelf

The Shallow Seas - Dawn Farnham

A novel of intrigue and Romance - Michaela MacColl

Not The girls you are looking for - Aminah Mae Safi 

Song of the Sea Maid - Rebecca Mascull

The dust that falls from the dreams - Louis d Bernieres

Zom-B - Darren Shan 

The World Worst Explorer ,  Fintan Fedora

Marie Antoinette, Serial Killer 

Wishing for Tomorrow - Hillary McKay

Snowfall - KM Peyton

Girls Walk into a blind date 

The fantastic family whipple 

Love and Friendship - Whit Stillman

The Romance Reader's Guide to Life - Sharon Pywell 

Meet and Delete - Pauline Lawless

A History of Johore by RO Winstedt,  Bought this at a sale in Muzium Negara. I was also feverish at the time. I wonder bila aku nak baca buku ni because while I am interested, faced it.. it looks boring as hell. 

Bought this batch at the Kedai Buku. The manless second hand bookshops. They were selling it at RM5 apiece then

Roald Dahl - The Witches and Charlie and The chocolate Factory

Lisa Kleypas - Secrets of Summer Nights

Left Overs - Stella Newman

Memoirs of a DJ , Life in Progress - Vernetta Lopez

Wicked Angel - Julia London

Bollywood Night - Shobhaa De

Matthew Reilly - Hover Car Racer

The Two Lives of Miss Charlotte Merryweather

I think this one is the 2021 BBW sale. 

The invisible life of Euridice Gusmao

Freshers - Tom Ellen and Lucy Ivison

How to start a fire - Lisa Lutz ( i def had bought this one again )

Love and Friendship - Wait I also had bought this again?

Re Jane - Patricia Park 

The Woman Who Upped and Left - Fiona Gibson

As good as it gets - Fiona Gibson

Finding Colin Firth - Mia March

Incarnations - Susan Barker 

                             The Sum of All Kisses, The Make Believe Husband - Julia Quinn 

The Lady Most Willing - JQ , CB and Eloisa James.

Eloisa James - 4 Nights with the Duke 

Love in the Afternoon , Married by Morning - Lisa Kleypas

The Girl who played Go - Shan Sa

Miss Purdy's class - Annie Murray

And this batch is kinda bittersweet because I bought it from the closed Ampang Point's Reader's Paradise book shop during their closing down fire sale. I hope the owners are doing well again and having the nicest of time reading their books. 

I used to rent books there. Sigh. I used to dream of opening a rent sorta bookstore. But I think this fad had died now? Used to be popular in the 90s. 

From classical to not

One of the reason why I started working is money. I want more freedom to spend on myself. I had also discovered I really like classical music and now attending my classical music performances. Most of it I went alone. Because I don't think I found anyone who is content to just sit and listen to just classical music for 2 hours and more. And I dont really like inviting anyone to come with me, because I feel like I would be disappointed if they wont enjoy it as much as I do. But if you do, lets go be silent together and enjoy the music. 

Its not boring for me, in fact I am always captivated. Recently someone in Twitter shared that Istana Budaya will do one of those classical performances by their National Symphony at RM30 per ticket. As someone who usually bought the cheapest ticket at RM130 for MPO , these are CHEAP. 

So I went ahead and just book myself tickets and had already jotted down their setlist so to speak. I found that listening to the setlist first, will make my listening in during the performance more enjoyable.

I think this year , I already went twice or thrice?, The Rachmaninoff one which is magnificent, and also Brahms violin concerto which I also love because the playing was so energetic. The next MPO performance I will be going to is the Hans Zimmer one. 

Dewa concert in Axiata Arena last year

But I am not a music snob, I am fine with the non classical concert too. Since I love Dewa, went to the Dewa concert last year. I had gone to the Dewa concert in 2019, in Stadium Malawati. And I love it. ( I also have better seat ). The seat for this Dewa concert in Axiata Arena. I hated. Its not worse as in cheaper, but I dont know why but I hate it. Everything feel cramped and I cant move. But we did get Ahmad Dhani back, so thats a plus. 

Next month I am gonna see Muse. I don't know what to expect from that. And of course I had scored Coldplay tickets. Standing . We will see about that too. I had also registered myself for the Taylor Swift tickets, but I am not putting much hope into that and just hope I get a cheap ticket by sheer luck. 

Figuring out what

I am back to work now. Why? Why do I work? As the rains poured down hard this morning... I was also like ... WHY DID I GO BACK TO WORK. Money. More money. I am not sure how long should I be working... we will see. 

I am still working in the HR IT line, no longer doing SAP, but more to other system. It is interesting.  So far. 

I am finding I have less and less of things to say here. The thoughts bubble and froth but when I got to this page, its mostly a blank. Maybe I should just put it as a travel sorta diary. 

What else I am up to? Kids? The boys are usual. Getting on my nerves and everything. Growing up does that. They are very helpful though, especially the eldest. But once they got a phone in hand, a fiery hale might come down and it would not faze them. 

I actually find it hard to concentrate or get stuffs out when everyone is talking around me. I am used to a quiet office I guess. Not here. Good God WFH should be mandatory. 

Putting in Monkee as big ball of fuzz to offset the boringness of this post

Been a while

 In fact its heading somewhere half into 2022. What the heck. 

So many things happened. Yet I can't remember. Its this whats getting old is all about? 

I got covid on the 31st of Dec 2021, so thats one way to start the year. Then the next month it was my husband. Nowadays everyone seems to be getting it. But with post vaccinations , it is almost not scary. The after effects of covid fatigue is very real though. And I had some up to know some taste change. 

Then the kids started school again with my eldest now going for the morning sessions so it was tiring and hectic and I feel like how can I properly make sure these 3 boys gets all the right kind of educations. I feel I should have just stick with cats sometimes, but even the cats dont turned out well sometimes. 

Thats the kids pic otw to Niah Cave. Ye orang lain beraya, we went to Niah. It was scary and we weren't that well prepared but it was fun. It was an INTENSE WORKOUT post raya though. 

AND... So Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to those who still persist in blogging and reading their fellows bloggers. I seen some writings back again after a few years and that makes me fire up this old blogger again. 

Maybe at the very least update some holidays, because like I had said, memories fade and sometimes I look back on the old blog updates of my holidays and like "eh that happened" . 

Anyway. I am suppose to be showering and then putting the kids to sleep and the kids are screaming (probably playing beyblades and acting like someone who do not have to wake up at 6 am tomorrow. ).

Its November

 I am feeling kinda tired all the time. 

Absolutely transfixed

Miraculously I havent manage to get one more cat into the house, but having 3 boys all the time at home, I feel like the house are filled to the brim already. 

The kids are going back to school now, but with sistem penggiliran in place. So it had been somewhat peaceful. Before this I feel like so tired sorting out their online classes, who needs to go where, which homework needs to be submitted, making sure they are engaged in classroom and not off somewhere playing Legos. 

This year, I think I might forego the annual sale BBW because I am broke, also my books are way too much, also it is held in somewhere I don't have the energy to drive to. 

Mostly here still watching kdramas, gaining weight and stroking cat furs at every opportune time. Been job searching too, but its been hard. HARD. Also countless interviews that goes nowhere can really break a human spirit. You feel like you are worthless to anyone and this kinda sabotage you more on the next interview. Hard to get out of this funk yo. 

I feel probably I need to start writing more. Just because. I may talk more on my progress on piano/violin playing here. Still playing. Little lagging on the piano part because I am on a hard page, need to push myself a bit more, I will , I will. I will try to get through that piece next week! 

Later, also did you guys went on a spree this 11.11?

Tiny Little Bobby

 

Thats what I call him when he first came to the house. He was so bulat ( from worms then bulat from all the eating) but so small in my hand, and he always came running when he heard that call name, perut gently swaying side by side. As he got bigger and fatter, the name stuck that my son asked me why I call him that because Bobby is not tiny. I said he is always tiny to me. 

He had his fault. Whenever he came upon a stray plastic on the floor, he will definitely peed on it. Bags too. It forced me to not leave things on the floor at the very least. 

He also like to scoot his butt on the floor after pooping when he was tiny. He stopped that habit when he was older. 

He eats a lot and became tubby. He always look to me like a kitten even when he was the oldest cat in the house. So I never stop calling him tiny little Bobby. 

This tubbiness then make his bone to cause issues in his senior years, which then led him having issues with his bowel movements, which led to a whole lot of issues.

Went to 2 vets, the later vets finally diagnosed the issues but it was getting too expensive. I was also frustrated by the solutions that does not seems to work with Bobby. Anyway its back and forth with vets, and I thought I finally gotten him to do better with a change of diet and regular lactulose, but it was not to be. A week before he passed, he stopped pooping (or pooped very little) and I thought I had more time to get him to the vet. He passed on the morning of 3rd of July 2021. He was 10 years old. 

I was concerned seeing him vomitting and basically being very lethargic but also restless the night before. I gave him fluid by subcut and thought that I will try to call the vet next day. I woke up and he is gone. 

I found him curl up next to his food, with poop around but otherwise looking the best he ever had for months. My heart it breaks. I hope he didn't suffer much, and if he did, it ends quickly for him. 

Put his body on a pile of news paper. He looked like he is sleeping. It breaks my heart.

I am sorry Bobby. I felt like I let him down. I was crying the past few days. I have a box full of his pack of wet food and canned food still and it breaks my heart that I didn't give him more of it. The other cats now enjoy your food Bobby. 

I will always remember the time I scoop you out of the top of lorry mewing loudly. I remember how you love to run around the small yard. And you always comes whenever I call your name, without fail. Only after you got sicker that you stopped coming. But when you feel healthy, you will come. 

I will miss you. You are free of pain now Bobby.